Have you ever sit and think of what you have gone through in life and wonder what's in store for you in the future?
As I sit here having my coffee, I'm reflecting on what has happened in the past and figuring out where my future will take me. Since I have had a diverse past which somewhat makes me for who I am today, I keep wondering what can I do to improve my future. I made a start last night in devoting myself to a church organization. This could bring new friends into my life but the only thing which will be missing is the companionship which everyone strive for. Do you devote yourself into something hoping it would bring you a new start? What about companionship?
If you are single like me, we tend to search for that special person to be your future. Since large cities are very scary, we tend to search for someone you've already known. The issue is, what do you do when you are from a different city or state and trying to find that special person? Some people search the gym for that hook up but it's just that, a hook up. A quality person is really hard to find when you are searching for one. I've known people to choose quantity verses quality in their life's and it's very strange to me because I am a monogamous person. But everyone has their own perspective and chooses their own ways of companionship. Looking in my past, I've always been monogamous which I am glad about it. Ar you monogamous? Or are you a player? Do you plan for your future?
Which ever way you choose to deal with your life, it's your business and no one can make you choose. Just realize that the past you had may hinder or make your future because learning from your past errors can make a difference for when you are choosing your future. As for me like others, I am still searching for that bright future and companionship which I've always dreamed about. So good luck on your future and also learn about things as you go.
Friday, January 30, 2015
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Life threatening disease
Do you help someone with a "life threatening disease" or do you run away?
I have known people in my life with life threatening disease which I was there for them. Yes, I said "known" because they have passed away and I am very glad that I was there to assist them. There are lots of threatening disease out there which is very hard for a person to even comprehend. I have personal experience for helping and caring for someone since 1993. I can't imagine how these people really felt when they were diagnose with a life threatening disease.
In 1993 I knew someone who was dying due to AIDS and it was an eye opening for me and which I was just only 25 years old and coming out. Also since I just moved to California and learned about the gay life style, I was very interested in it. I was not afraid of what I was doing to help him through his last days with us but it was really worth it being part of something that could shape me for the future. I've learned what was safe sex and what was not safe. As a HIV Negative person, I was very fortunate of learning safe sex and going to groups to talk about it. The group that I use to hang out with were very knowledgeable about the life style and I learned a lot. Now days there are lots of prevention to help people who are infected with the disease and I applaud for the medical professionals who discovered the drugs. A longer life for them.
But this is not the only disease I had to deal with in my life. My late partner had a heart disease which took a lot of our time in and out of the hospitals. I spent numerous day and nights in the hospital with him. I also had a scare of loosing him 2 1/2 years prior of his actual passing date. I spent a month in Mississippi while he was in a coma for 12 days. I was told he would not live through this because his heart could not take it but with the grace of God he woke up. Once he woke up it was another adventure I had to go through. He spent a month or two in rehab which it was tough. This disease did not take him then but it took his life later down the line. Being there and caring for him was a choice I choose. I did not even think about moving on or giving up on him because I knew that everyone needs someone, especially in hard times. Not that I would have left him because he was the lite of my life. But I was going to be there until the end (like a married couple).
Soon after my partner passed, I was faced with an extended family member and a friend dealing with Cancer. It was tough for both families who cared for them. I was there for both people and trying to do as much as I could for both of them, Since both were miles apart, I spent little time here and there to help them out. Yes within year and a half, I dealt with several deaths personally of family and friends. I've learned a lot about how people feel when the end is coming.
So as you can see, I have spent part of my life helping people in need. But would you do the same if you've come across someone who needs a friend or someone who needs your help? I hope so because some of these disease are family hereditary or was done by accidentally. I've been watching the news and saw all these people suffering and there's no where to turn to. We all need to help each other because life is to short. So get out there and do something for someone. Whether they are ill or not, do something for someone.
I have known people in my life with life threatening disease which I was there for them. Yes, I said "known" because they have passed away and I am very glad that I was there to assist them. There are lots of threatening disease out there which is very hard for a person to even comprehend. I have personal experience for helping and caring for someone since 1993. I can't imagine how these people really felt when they were diagnose with a life threatening disease.
In 1993 I knew someone who was dying due to AIDS and it was an eye opening for me and which I was just only 25 years old and coming out. Also since I just moved to California and learned about the gay life style, I was very interested in it. I was not afraid of what I was doing to help him through his last days with us but it was really worth it being part of something that could shape me for the future. I've learned what was safe sex and what was not safe. As a HIV Negative person, I was very fortunate of learning safe sex and going to groups to talk about it. The group that I use to hang out with were very knowledgeable about the life style and I learned a lot. Now days there are lots of prevention to help people who are infected with the disease and I applaud for the medical professionals who discovered the drugs. A longer life for them.
But this is not the only disease I had to deal with in my life. My late partner had a heart disease which took a lot of our time in and out of the hospitals. I spent numerous day and nights in the hospital with him. I also had a scare of loosing him 2 1/2 years prior of his actual passing date. I spent a month in Mississippi while he was in a coma for 12 days. I was told he would not live through this because his heart could not take it but with the grace of God he woke up. Once he woke up it was another adventure I had to go through. He spent a month or two in rehab which it was tough. This disease did not take him then but it took his life later down the line. Being there and caring for him was a choice I choose. I did not even think about moving on or giving up on him because I knew that everyone needs someone, especially in hard times. Not that I would have left him because he was the lite of my life. But I was going to be there until the end (like a married couple).
Soon after my partner passed, I was faced with an extended family member and a friend dealing with Cancer. It was tough for both families who cared for them. I was there for both people and trying to do as much as I could for both of them, Since both were miles apart, I spent little time here and there to help them out. Yes within year and a half, I dealt with several deaths personally of family and friends. I've learned a lot about how people feel when the end is coming.
So as you can see, I have spent part of my life helping people in need. But would you do the same if you've come across someone who needs a friend or someone who needs your help? I hope so because some of these disease are family hereditary or was done by accidentally. I've been watching the news and saw all these people suffering and there's no where to turn to. We all need to help each other because life is to short. So get out there and do something for someone. Whether they are ill or not, do something for someone.
All about Religion
What's on my mind today? Religion.
My readers on this page or my other page are majority Catholics, which I was raised as a catholic too. Since I got older I have changed religion but still have the catholic in me. I am a member of non-denominational church called MCC which I've been a member for many years. I have seen many changes while a member of MCC. Some good and some bad.
Because I was baptized as Catholic I really can't remember all the changes that has happened back than since I was young and it has been many years since than. I know I've seen different priest at our church throughout the years. As an adult, things are making sense of what's happening when it comes to attending churches and the politics that comes with it. The major thing I remember looking back is that the priest played a major part of the congregation and keeping it's parish together. I remember going to the church on a week day praying for things that has gone wrong and always a priest was there because he lived on the premises which the doors were always open to the public. I am not sure if Catholic churches still have open door polices since I've been attending a different type of church. I am not sure what's happening now days with the Catholics. Do you know if the doors are always open to the public? Has things changed since I was younger regarding open door polices for the Catholic church?
I have notice more and more churches are just there for Sunday's Services. I attended a church close to me where I live (not an MCC church), not even the church staff was there doing the week. The only time I've seen anyone there is when there was a function or Sunday Service. I know these people still gets paid as a staff member but they work from home as they say. So what happens to the building while parishioners wants to pray at the house of the lord? I know where ever you pray God can hear you but like when I was young, it was nice to be in the house of lord. Other churches I see they have their staff there but it's only for church business and not for anyone who wants to just pray in the house of lord.
Has things changed so much that we only have Sunday Services or special functions? In my opinion, I think since majority of the churches own their own building, they should open it up to the public. Hey, maybe that one or several people who goes to pray doing the week would donate to the churches donation box and not only in a Sunday Service. Churches now days are suffering financially with their budget but opening to new idea or concepts on going back to how it was, could be an option to receive more money. I don't know, what do you think? I know I always did put something in the donation box when I went doing the week which I felt I needed to. So this is something you should think about regarding the church you attend.
My readers on this page or my other page are majority Catholics, which I was raised as a catholic too. Since I got older I have changed religion but still have the catholic in me. I am a member of non-denominational church called MCC which I've been a member for many years. I have seen many changes while a member of MCC. Some good and some bad.
Because I was baptized as Catholic I really can't remember all the changes that has happened back than since I was young and it has been many years since than. I know I've seen different priest at our church throughout the years. As an adult, things are making sense of what's happening when it comes to attending churches and the politics that comes with it. The major thing I remember looking back is that the priest played a major part of the congregation and keeping it's parish together. I remember going to the church on a week day praying for things that has gone wrong and always a priest was there because he lived on the premises which the doors were always open to the public. I am not sure if Catholic churches still have open door polices since I've been attending a different type of church. I am not sure what's happening now days with the Catholics. Do you know if the doors are always open to the public? Has things changed since I was younger regarding open door polices for the Catholic church?
I have notice more and more churches are just there for Sunday's Services. I attended a church close to me where I live (not an MCC church), not even the church staff was there doing the week. The only time I've seen anyone there is when there was a function or Sunday Service. I know these people still gets paid as a staff member but they work from home as they say. So what happens to the building while parishioners wants to pray at the house of the lord? I know where ever you pray God can hear you but like when I was young, it was nice to be in the house of lord. Other churches I see they have their staff there but it's only for church business and not for anyone who wants to just pray in the house of lord.
Has things changed so much that we only have Sunday Services or special functions? In my opinion, I think since majority of the churches own their own building, they should open it up to the public. Hey, maybe that one or several people who goes to pray doing the week would donate to the churches donation box and not only in a Sunday Service. Churches now days are suffering financially with their budget but opening to new idea or concepts on going back to how it was, could be an option to receive more money. I don't know, what do you think? I know I always did put something in the donation box when I went doing the week which I felt I needed to. So this is something you should think about regarding the church you attend.
Date for Valentine's Day
As a single person, how do you find a Valentine's Day date?
Since I've been out of the loop for many years, how do you find a date for Valentine's Day? What is your secret in finding a date on that special day?
This will be my third Valentine's Day without a date since my late partner passed. But this year I am willing and should find a date for that special day. I just need to see what's out there. Who knows, maybe there is a special person that would be the right person for me. Not that I am searching for that special person but who knows. Since moving to Kansas City from the country it is very difficult to make new friends in the life style. Don't get me wrong, I've met other nice people here but no one in particular to date. The city should have a variety of people to choose from but I haven't found that particular person yet. With my past history, I've met people from other states or city which somewhat worked out fine because I've moved there when the timing was right. This time I am starting slow and finding a date first to see how it goes. I think Valentine's Day could be fun with the right person.
Where and how do you find a date for Valentine's Day? I know it is normally for couples but single people can find a date on that special day to just enjoy like the rest of them. Are you single and searching for that special friend to enjoy on that day? If so, good luck and have fun.
Since I've been out of the loop for many years, how do you find a date for Valentine's Day? What is your secret in finding a date on that special day?
This will be my third Valentine's Day without a date since my late partner passed. But this year I am willing and should find a date for that special day. I just need to see what's out there. Who knows, maybe there is a special person that would be the right person for me. Not that I am searching for that special person but who knows. Since moving to Kansas City from the country it is very difficult to make new friends in the life style. Don't get me wrong, I've met other nice people here but no one in particular to date. The city should have a variety of people to choose from but I haven't found that particular person yet. With my past history, I've met people from other states or city which somewhat worked out fine because I've moved there when the timing was right. This time I am starting slow and finding a date first to see how it goes. I think Valentine's Day could be fun with the right person.
Where and how do you find a date for Valentine's Day? I know it is normally for couples but single people can find a date on that special day to just enjoy like the rest of them. Are you single and searching for that special friend to enjoy on that day? If so, good luck and have fun.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Days like this
Have you ever wonder what "Days like this" means? I often wonder but everyone has different answers to the question.
Today has been a weird day (quite depressing). When things can go wrong, it will go wrong. I haven't seen anything positive happening today and I have decided to just kick back and let the day go by. What do you do when everything goes wrong? Without going into details, at times I remind myself that there is always tomorrow. Tomorrow might bring a better day. Thinking positive for the next day is the best way I know how to deal with it. So hopefully you are not having a "day like this" as I am.
Today has been a weird day (quite depressing). When things can go wrong, it will go wrong. I haven't seen anything positive happening today and I have decided to just kick back and let the day go by. What do you do when everything goes wrong? Without going into details, at times I remind myself that there is always tomorrow. Tomorrow might bring a better day. Thinking positive for the next day is the best way I know how to deal with it. So hopefully you are not having a "day like this" as I am.
Bible Scriptures
This morning I have started differently than my normal routine. Somehow while checking all my Facebook, email and twitter account I came across bible scriptures on my internet browser.
The browser showed me different ways of analyzing James 3:1 scripture. The strange thing is that it's all about being a teacher and higher standards. I am not a man of the cloth but I know several people who are. There are more than these examples below but I choose these two.
The browser showed me different ways of analyzing James 3:1 scripture. The strange thing is that it's all about being a teacher and higher standards. I am not a man of the cloth but I know several people who are. There are more than these examples below but I choose these two.
3 My brethren, let not many be masters, knowing that we shall receive the greater condemnation.
Or
3 Not many [of you] should become teachers (self-constituted censors and reprovers of others), my brethren, for you know that we [teachers] will be judged by a higher standard and with greater severity [than other people; thus we assume the greater accountability and the more condemnation].
This is not my normal style of blog but I had to share what came across my computer this morning.
Monday, January 26, 2015
Mutual Respect
Do you give mutual respect to others? Or are you one of those people expect respect from others but does not give it? Also there are people out there that respect themselves, they always respect others and don't expect it back.
I was raised Catholic from when I was young and has change religion multiple times through my life. The words or life style I remember and has stuck with me through my life journey is: Treat others as you want to be treated. These simple words are just that "simple". What ever religion you are and plan to be, those words are in every religion. (I could be wrong, but it's been with all the different denominations I've been to) I know it's simple words but it's a tough one to live up to.
If you are a CEO of a company, teacher, students, truck drivers, priest, self employed or just and employee of a company; we are all humans and need respect from one another. The best way I've learned is if you want respect, you must first respect yourself and always give respect to others whether they are nice to you or not. Once you learn how to respect others, you'll see that you'll get respect back. Don't be fooled, there are people out there that really don't know how to respect anyone. And there are people out there that expect respect from you but when it's time for them to respect you, they hide behind their own shadow. Yes, as human instinct we tend to always "want" things but really don't know how to act when it comes to yourself. It sounds weird but if you really look into yourself, do you see a respectful person or do you see someone who just want things from others?
In relationships people tend to start nicely respecting each other but when things go wrong, does the respect continues? From my experience and I was bad at that too, I tend to walk away from it all and never looked back. There were some people I kept contact with but others play no part of my life til today. Did I respect them enough to keep the friendship? No... Since than, I've learned that things does go wrong and parting from one another is just part of life. I tried to keep the peace and not make it a life changing situation. But it takes two and if the other person writes you off, than they did not have enough respect for you. And that's okay too because you know in your heart that you respected yourself enough to respect the other person. Life is a learning experience and with God's help, we all can learn how to get along with one another. I for one, if I could go back and undo the wrong I've done in the past, I would. Forgiveness of any wrong doing starts from you and if I knew where these people were, I would try to rectify the respect and friendship with these people. But since I don't know where they have gone to, I pray for them and their well being that life has treated them well.
So if I can make changes in my life to respect everyone, can you? Take it slow and start with yourself first.
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